Home Sweet Home

I have a dream to make my mom happy and proud of me, we have through a lot of tragedy in this year. Although I always look like I don’t care and stubborn but actually I do care as fuck. Whenever I see my mom cry, I feel like someone shoot me right in my heart. It’s so sick. Why people always want to know another person problem? Why do they look like they really care when they just wanna gossiping to make their life entertain? Do they think my family life is something that can consume by many people? If killing is illegal, am gonna kill everyone that makes my mom cry. I feel so numb when I near my neighborhood just because am so tired of them. They always said I give “I don’t give a fuck” attitude. Geez, I am. I am so done with everything about them. I hate them. Why can’t they just act like they truly are. I don’t need good mask attitude in front of me. I ain’t even care if they all talk bad about me. But, don’t touch my mom ever. Don’t make her cry except all of you really wanna k...

Well, I have no idea why I became the laziest person ever in my life right now. I wanna study in London to take english master degree and take set designer over there. I keep telling my self “Yo, move your lazy ass to university everyday and do your task properly”. Damn, I really want to study there. Why I lack of motivation?!!!!

So, yesterday mom, my younger sister and I are having fun. We are taking many pictures together. Don't ask why my dad ain't follow, cuz I've had enough to discuss about him, arasseo?! This is the pictures, I don't know why I am the shortest. HUHUHUHUHU Mom and I many people think that we are siblings, I don't get it why? she's my mom tho, not my sister Younger Sista and I her body like stick hehe but she's too heavy when I piggyback her, ugh damn mom, youngsta, and I youngsta, mom, and I mom, youngsta, and I I don't know that my mom can show her face like that in pict haha honestly I refuse to wear this kebaya coz I look so fat huhu

Since I am single I can do anything I want. Such as hangout with ma friends. Shopping by my self, traveling, food traveling, etc. Well, an hour ago my ex sending me a message. I dunno why he becoming new jerk. I hope, he'll realize that girl in his chatting line is unreal. I mean how fool is he believing someone who he barely knows. Ooppss, sorry. Hehe. We aint gonna discuss bout him tho. So let's back to the topic. Since am single I can do anything which I wish long time ago. I can watch K-pop again. Yassss ma world, back to MEEEEEE! hell, yes. Am a K-poppers. But, I've lost my chance to stay in line because my ex is throwing all of my k-pop stuff. He said it un useful. Helloooo, Music is bae. It's always with me whenever and wherever I am. But my ex? STAPH, why I keep mentioning him?! Okay, NEXT. Ma freedom is back. HAHAHAHA I used to only love BIGBANG, then I found BTS, BLOCK B, GOT7, WINNER, MONSTAX, SEVENTEEN, VIXX. Many attractive korean men keep making me ins...

So, I just break up with my boyfriend 3 days ago. I mean he's my ex-boyfriend now. The main reason is he trust his chatting friend over me. He likes chatting in some sosmed. Which I barely open my sosmed. It's not I am anti-social. Just am too lazy to see overreact people, that's it. Did you have to always post anything?! Like your life depend on it! Come on guys, you still can life even though you barely open your facebook ight?. So, back to the topic. We break up in his birthday day, I broke him up. I end our relationship. Not trying to being so mean. But, he is the one that keep disbelieve me because he keep believing his chatting friends. Which is he knows for a months and it's a girl. It's not like I didn't try to keep our relationship work, he does. Every time he says that Am a liar, Am a gold digger, Am a bad girlfriend. Just because his chatting friend told him. I don't know her name, but he ever mention a name R*******. I don't want to mention...

Since today Am not in the mood to share any beauty tips. I just thinking about my goal. I dunno why suddenly I wanna be a singer. my voice is so deep. like under the ocean. Even my friends which is boy. Always said that my voice so manly. wtf. I ever post in suncloud a song that I sing. well, then I delete it. I have no confident yanno. But, honestly what I wanna be is an actress that got many awards. I had no idea where I have to start, but I think I can start from following acting class and do something to my self. Mostly my body I mean. I am 163cm with 57kg and healing face. Well, my face is so worst. But now is getting better. I used to have a lot of acnes everywhere in my face. Now is the dark spot only and my big pore is still driving me crazy. I still can't find how can I fix it. I do many exercises to make my body fit. I don't train to slim but train to fit. how bout you? what is your goal?